

Current films I have recently seen and love. Two featuring Penelope Cruz. I really loved Pearl Diver and glad I decided to pick it up. I am working my butt off, even with the pain. I have another appt for next month. I shot each month to clear up the endemetriosis. As painful as it is, I am determined to work my butt off. It has been frustrating... or even so with medication that helps me get myself to work. I never want to end up just giving up and curling up in a ball and feeling sorry for myself. I see so many with much bigger struggles, and they maintain a peace, grace and ease about them... One is a dear friend with cancer, a brain tumor..and goes through chemo and a wonderful example of someone who is positive, filled with a lot of love and manages to get himself to work and see the goodness around him.. Rather than the victim mentality is hard to be around.. you see how truly spoiled and selfish we can be. Shifting your attention on gratitude... that which you do have.. than that which you don't. Work has been trying, lifting my one leg up just to get in the car.. taking pain meds.. its only temporary for another 5 months.. but something amazing and fulfilling has come with it, a strength i found in myself and moving forward than giving in. Many are angry or frustrated about this or that. It's everywhere you look these days...and i think the one thing we all come to realize is that there comes a point of letting go of blame, anger and where does that get you? it can be too exhausting...instead all you can do is take accountability for yourself, love yourself and do your best to love others even if they are not capable or able to be in that space themselves.




